Day 1, well night before...

OK, well tonight is my first night posting on this blog! I have never even done anything like this before, but have read MANY! Mostly ones about people who are on an unfortunate journey with a sick child and how strong they have to be for those children. I have always wondered why they decided to write their feelings on a computer for all the world to see. Then one night, while reading about a father who had just lost his child, I realized that he was using this as an escape from the world around him. It is a place he can go and just vent about his feelings and not have anyone that knows him give their opinion. Well, that is exactly what I need. It is strange, as I am typing, I am not even pausing for one moment to think about what I need to say, it just seems to flow so easily. I am sure as the days go on that will not continue so easily, but for now I am happy I can just let all my thoughts run free! Well, I have decided that something drastic needs to happen. I am extremely unhappy with the weight gain over the past 10 years! I used to be a size 2 and now hover around a 10 or 12. I can't fit in to any of my clothes and I have a closet full of nice clothing that is just collecting dust. I refuse to buy new ones because I feel like this is admitting that it is ok to be the weight I am. This is completely unacceptable and it has finally come to a time that I need to change it! I am doing a Biggest Loser compitition with my sister and also have a bet with my friend Caroline to see if I can lose 40 lbs by x-mas. So, I really need to motivate. I also figure this might change other thimgs in my life that I am unhappy about, but those are things I will talk about in future blogs. For now, I will just start to document my weight loss and my thoughts about my life. Till tomorrow, which is Day 1 of my diet and my journey to a skinny me!